| This morning as I touched the snooze alarm for the fourth time, I felt a piece of note paper on top of the alarm clock. I pulled it close to my squinting eyes and read the word "Change!!!" underlined three times. The handwriting was mine, but I didn't remember writing it--must have been one of those twilight zone between being awake and asleep messages. I racked my brain for a few seconds, but I just couldn't figure out what I had been trying to tell myself with that one word so forcefully underlined and marked
with three exclamation points.
Was it something simple and practical, such as changing the time on my alarm clock so that I didn't have to use the snooze function so often?
Perhaps it was more to the root of the problem--admonishing myself to get to bed earlier each night.
Or was it more global? Did I mean that I should look for a new line of work or simply try to do a better job in my current occupation?
Should I finally develop some better eating habits or drink those eight servings of water that I know I should be getting each day?
Was I telling myself once and for all to break the cycle of getting involved with one after another attractive but selfish and ultimately destructive women?
Maybe I should get back into therapy to discover what I really need to change.
By the time my alarm went off again after the seven-minute snooze cycle, I decided to give up. I had to drag myself to the shower and start another day. I could postpone my self-examination for lunch hour.
As I staggered through the living room toward the bathroom, I glanced at the coffee table. There I saw a bag of coin wrappers alongside an enormous pile of pennies, nickels, dimes, and quarters that I had finally remembered to bring in from the car last night.
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